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I know my Mother
I know my Father
I know I wasn't wanted

I know I was born as a last ditch effort
To save their failing marriage
I didn't save it

They couldn't do the kind thing
Leave me behind
Relingious their rights

My Mother wanted me
So my Father couldn't have me
Once she had me she had no interst

I went to bed hungry so many nights
I didn't have an outfit for anymore than two days a week
Most years one outfit had to last five school days

Frankiepoo came into our lives
He spanked me because Mother said it was okay
He was fed and clothed better than me

I left
My Father promised me a better life
He lied

I didn't see it at first
I was so happy to have food and clothes
A bed to myself, a whole room to myself

It wore off
He became a monster
My Mother stepped out of the picture

She came back in
But left with glee once more
Not before reminding me how worthless and horrid I am

My Father is an alcholic
An asshole
He takes his anger out on me

Yet claims to love me oh so much
And wants nothing more than to protect me
How can that be?

If he's angry
He takes it out on me
Calls me names tells me I should just go die on the streets

It's gotten so bad he'll throw things at me
My head is his favorite target
Anger relief

He sees nothing wrong cause he feels better
I feel worse
But he doesn't care

It's all my fault
They both agree
Should never have been born

I'm just misery
To all those I touch
Should do the world a favor and just go bye-bye

I know my parents
But I am parentless
I think them cruel

To let me know them
To let me know how hated I am
To always know no matter where I go in life I'll always be a disappointment
Bella Larson
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RockNRollGal Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is so sad, and so horrible, I'm sorry you have to live like that. :iconsadhugplz:
I really do hope that things will get better for you. God bless you. :heart:
T-R-E-V Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
^To add further to what I said above, I strongly believe that people should only have children if they really want them. It would spare so many people so much pain. Alcoholism is a horrible thing, but a lot of times those people are victims themselves. And as for your mother...:facepalm:.
T-R-E-V Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
I second all the above^. That is really sad, and I'm so sorry :(. (you probably don't want to hear that all the time)
mabelpinesrules1 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Student General Artist
OMG! Is that a true story? If it is I am so very sorry. But if you just wrote it out of the blue then nice job :emcoticonpleasedplz:
NerdyAssassin94 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
Yeah its true its a very shorten version of my 18 years but all true
mabelpinesrules1 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Student General Artist
I am so sorry . Just know that DA has got your back
LinkNZeldaForever Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012
I hope this isn't true and if it is I am so sorry. :(
NerdyAssassin94 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
yeah its true and thanks
LinkNZeldaForever Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
Than I am truly sorry... however, some of us are truly parentless as well... Have you tried talking to them about how you feel? I mean really talking to them? Even if you and others can understand what they are doing is wrong, it does not mean they do.

Some times they need a light of their own to show them through the darkness. Strangely, people care in some of the cruelest ways... :(
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