Blank Face

I don’t know how
To express myself
Properly
Like a normal human being

My face is blank
It shows nothing
Yet inside my emotions rage

But they don’t over flow
My face keeps its blank slate
I don’t know how to express myself

That’s not okay
The world needs to see
Everything I feel

I must prove that I feel
If I don’t then
I’m passionless
I’m unmotivated
I love nothing

It’s not true but this is what I am told
It cuts me like a knife
No one understands why

I have so much passion
So much motivation
A love for what I do
That’s why I do it

But I can’t show it
I’m fucked up
I can’t help that
I can’t change that

I can’t force the expression
I can’t fake it
It has to come naturally

But it doesn’t always
In moments it shows through
True and unmistakable
But only in moments

Moments aren’t enough for the world

My face is blank
Showing everything isn’t natural
I can’t help it

I’m fucked up
I hide from the world
I fear people
I’ve been hurt by everyone I’ve ever know

So I hide
I keep it all in
My emotions rage inside
My face remains blank

That’s me
And it’s not okay
I’m cut down for being me

It only makes me retreat more
I feel
I’m passionate
Motivated
I love what I do with all my heart

You just can’t see it
I’m in my own little world
And I can’t join yours
I want to
But I’m not right

I don’t express correctly
So I am pushed out

Left alone
In my world

Because I’m fucked up
And I don’t fit anywhere